家庭 社會議題/寫實 LGBTQ
1996 實體出版
一個在傳統家庭得不到愛的女孩,在其他女孩身上,終其一生追索著愛與被愛。
A lesbian who couldn't be loved in her traditional family, she is eager for love and being love all her life.
杜修蘭 1966年生,中興大學法商學院肄業。 《逆女》是她的第一部小說,初試啼聲便展現了不同凡響的大家風範。全書描寫「逆女」如何離開「家」,又如何打造心靈安頓的「家」,情感熱烈真摯。她以《逆女》一書榮獲第1屆「皇冠大眾小說獎」百萬首獎,一鳴驚人。
Hsiu-Lan DU Born in 1966, majored in business but story is always her favoriate. Disobedient Daughter is her debut and won the first “Crown Popular Fiction Award”.
天使逐漸發現自己對女生懷有遐思,即使覺得自己很骯髒,卻無法遏止萌芽的慾望。高中進入女校,她與學姐清清在虎視眈眈的敵意下,初嘗戀愛的煩惱與甜蜜。但當這段感情被揭發,留給天使的只有無盡的悲痛和抑鬱。 她想愛,卻不能愛。大學畢業前夕,天使遇見了徐姐和林姐這對情侶,並認識了美琦。天使離開家,和她們租屋共居,彼此照應。但天使發現美琦無法滿足自己被愛的渴望,於是她開始流連酒吧,用年輕的肉體吸引陌生的女人。然而感官的刺激縱樂,只讓她周而復始地陷入空虛,無法自拔。 沒有愛人的能力,沒有被愛的擔當,在美琦尖銳的控訴下,天使恍然自己早已被母親的羞辱和遺棄毀了一生。原來,她沒有救贖,只能沉淪,一步步直到羽翼燃燒殆盡……
1990s in Taipei, Angel Ding, the second child in her family, her father was veteran from Mainland China, her mother was local Taiwanese woman, much younger than her husband. Angel’s father was quiet in family, her mother controlled everything with her own grocery, money and loud voice was her weapon against uncertainty and insecurity. Angel had one older and one younger brother, she, the daughter was the most ignored. Angel was unhappy in family, she was isolated from love. When Angle grew up, she started to have different feeling about girls. She didn’t know it’s right or wrong, maybe wrong, she guessed. But when Ching Ching appeared in thier classroom, she knew it’s right. Unfortunately, Angel and Ching Ching’s relationship was discovered, Ching Ching committed suicide for the despair of the coming future. Angel was hurt badly, she was isolated from love again. And of course, her family couldn’t understand and felt shame for her. Angel left home after colleague, she breathed freedom for the first time. She also found a place like home, a lesbian bar, she could be herself and no one would judge her there. Angel was lucky to have a girl friend Maggie. Maggie was mature and tender, always waiting for Angle, even she had affair with other girls. Angel didn’t know how to stay for long time, she knew it hurt Maggie, she just didn’t know how to say sorry. At the same time, Angel’s mother never changed, complaining about everything, as if she was the most unlucky person in the world. Angle tried to return home for her brothers and father, but it didn’t work, Angel’s mother was angry, she thought no one loved her. Angel left home again, who she was, where she could stay, she didn’t know the answer…
「金鐘獎」最佳單元劇、最佳導演、最佳女主角、最佳男配角 | 2001 金鐘獎 |
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百萬首獎 | 1996 第1屆「皇冠大眾小說獎」 |
1996 |
2021/09/27 推出25週年紀念版
25th Anniversary Edition is going to be released on 27th September 2021